i couldn't do it

as hard as a milk protein free diet is

i tried to switch eleanor to formula last night

and she took it

but it felt way too painful (emotionally) to stop nursing her

she is so little

and such a good nurser

i decided to nurse her again this morning

i don't know if i'll last an entire year nursing her 

while on this diet

but i would rather not eat eggs, cheese, milk, ice cream, etc.

than stop nursing her right now

she is worth the sacrifice

i will probably just try adding foods 

with small amounts of milk-protein

back in my diet, little by little

we'll see how it goes

i just love eleanor