waiting

since being in the hospital

eleanor has had her blood drawn twice

an iv in her arm constantly

that took three excruciating tries to get in

a catheter inserted just to get a sample of urine

that didn't go in the first time by any means either

as well as a little oxygen monitor on her toe

and we still aren't sure what's wrong

her fever finally broke in the middle of the night

so we're watching that today

and if it stays low

and a blood culture does not show bacterial growth

we might be able to take her home today

which would be ideal

if it is bacterial

then they might have to give her a spinal tap

and then antibiotics through her iv

i'm really hoping to not have to watch as she gets a spinal tap

holding her down and watching everything else has been bad enough

but i'm not sure i can handle that one

thank you for your prayers